As soon as dessert was over, off everyone went in their own direction. The younger boys headed out to the kitchen to get the dishes done and clean it up, my husband headed off to work with a ministry he is involved in, my daughter and her boyfriend left to go do some things and my older son and his girlfriend also exited. I wasn't sad or angry---this is just very typical. Dinner had been an enjoyable time--it just didn't seem to last very long.
The following Sunday, I didn't know who was going to be there. I decided on something simple for lunch--hamburgers and fries. I always like those meals because all I have to do is prepare the fries (throw them in the oven!) and fix a few ingredients to go on the hamburgers. Hubby does the cooking on those days. Clean up is easy and I haven't spent half of the day working on the meal. When this meal was over though, people hung around the house. My daughter worked on some college stuff with her dad and the boys played video games. My oldest son came and sat with me in the living room and started sharing with me how the sermon that morning had convicted him. We spent the next hour having a beautiful and deep conversation that really touched my heart. My daughter had also gotten to spend some valuable time with her dad. I smiled to myself, realizing that the afternoon had been a gift--a blessing. Despite my efforts the week before to have a wonderful and lavish meal and help to 'create a memory', the blessing didn't come on that day ...the blessing came simply and unexpectedly the following week.


God blesses as he wills, when he chooses. It is not dependent on me in any way, shape or form. I can't create the perfect atmosphere, will my family to act in a certain way, or do enough to say, "Look God! I did this well! I worked hard! I accomplished the task! I did it right! Now, bless me please!" I've been rethinking my efforts over the last several years regarding holidays, desiring to scale things back a bit and wishing to soak in the beauty of the holidays, rather than only experience the dizzying rush! But I also desire to absorb life too--not just the moments we think are supposed to be special---birthdays, weddings, holidays and vacations, but to see the blessings in plain 'ol ordinary everyday life! Why is that? Because.
Because God has already given me the greatest blessing I could ever want or desire. That blessing is that he sent his son to take my place. I don't have to pay the penalty for sin--Jesus paid that penalty for me. What bigger blessing could there be? He is. He is the great I AM. Just knowing him is blessing enough...and it comes simply and unexpected.
"The man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence indeed is the Lord, is blessed. Jeremiah 17:7 (NASB)
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